结束，接受

如果单身那该有多好。

有人追求，那也该有多好。

无话不说的好朋友永远就不可能是男和女。

这就是生活。

我应该要接受这命运。

错过的，永远是最美的。

回忆，更是没有缺点的。

我应该成熟点，接受事实。

向往更美好的生活，朋友，家人等。！

你好吗

让我学会忘记。好吗 ？ 怎么办？

才短短的一个星期。

为什么会这样呢？

防空洞

词曲/ 戴佩妮

还记得那一次你将你的手　
小心的放进我的口袋　
轻声的说不要颤抖

还记得那一次你擦干我的泪　
还坚持将我低下的头　
紧紧贴进你的胸口

我有多久没感动过　
若不是你那么强烈的保护我
若不是你的那一句　
你有的不多　却愿意把最好的都留给我

你要我住进你心里的防空洞　
不让无谓的思绪暗涌
再多纷扰 也都没有用　
你决定了我所有喜怒哀愁

你把我带到一个停泊的港口　
让回忆可以避避风
仰望着夜空　听潮起潮落　
为你我不再向往着漂流

just

俩难。

原来，怎么办？

我心动了。

然而，我拒绝了。

虽然很。。。

我想，我会习惯的。

No one

No one will understand me

No one will save me

No one will help me

No one,

I'm only the person who help myself.

Can someone let me rely.?!

十九

今年，我十九。

每每回想小时候。

总觉得岁月不饶人。

Miss lor 的儿子要买课外的阅读书。

回家找真的给我找到。

很怀念小学和朋友笑笑闹闹。

多么无忧。（虽然自认还蛮成熟）

那时与二姐的吵架。

真的真心认为家人根本不爱我。

慈济真的帮我很多。

等等的开心与不开心，都在我心里。

中学前，我去考了兴华。也考上了。

但是爸爸给我读光华。

多么可惜的一个机会。

等到中学了，只能说我没什么朋友。

因为觉得他们全部都有自己的小学朋友，而我，一个人。

所以，我很孤独。

认识的朋友也是这样。静静的。

进入乐队，因为姐姐也是乐队。

有姐姐靠真好，因为她们会教我很多东西。

到她们都毕业了。

真的很空，独自的出席练习等等的说。

学会了独立，靠自己，学业也是吧〜

到了form4,

当每天都在乐队，补习，上课里度过。

小提琴，钢琴。

一星期七天。

我无时无刻都在忙。

没了娱乐，没了其他的活动。

但是很充实，真的很开心我所拥有的！

但是，那时的我很累很累，很需要一个肩膀依靠。

这时他的温暖，他的爱，让我真的很想很想靠一靠。

答应了，但是很不确定。

总觉得一切都是一场错误。。。。。

To be continue..

中学期间当然也发生了不少事，参加很多很多的生活营。

他，他，他，他，他.....

到最后，和他。。。

到现在，我们的沟通方式很可爱。

虽然他有点改变了，或许成熟了？又或许他的朋友们？？ 

太多的或许了。。。

但是我知道他，很孤独，很少朋友。。

我很努力的做好自己去给他。

但。。好像很不如意。

很多的瓶颈了，我们达不到共识。。。

现在，我真的很希望我们能永远。。

。。。。。。希望。。。。。。

到了中学毕业，我到爸爸公司上班。

因为有国民服务，也是我最期待得一个任务。

所以被逼要延迟到UTAR上课。

这么延迟就延迟一年了。。。

中间也和全家去了台湾。真的非常的难得，也很开心。。

虽然爸爸的问题越来越可怕。。。

到了现在，第一学期结束了。

我要加油。！！！^_^

#出入平平安安

#找到知心朋友

#一切顺顺利利

#家人安康

#和他开开心心

母亲节，浴佛日，慈济日

首先，我很感谢我最敬爱的妈妈。

不管遇到什么事情总是我条件的爱我们六个瓜。

这些年来所有的委屈，无奈，难过都收在心里。

妈妈，您这伟大的动作。

我怎么也回报不了。

只能好好的陪伴您，爱您，照顾您。

我最爱的妈妈。

我爱您！！！

去了慈济的与佛典礼。

很开心。很感动。

即将十九岁的我

进入第十九个年头，我发现我是一般中的一般。
怎么说呢？
第一，我的交友能力真的很差。
第二，我还是个学生，一个没有经济能力的学生。即使做了一年的工。
第三，我没有出众的外表，身材。
第四，我没有看得过的成绩，没有远远的目标。
第五，我很想改变自己。

真的发生很多事，家里的问题。朋友的问题。与他的问题。还有自个儿的问题一个一个接踵而来..
无奈

 23/3/13

Foundation life

I met a new friend..ya..'A' new friend..
I think it's my communication problem..:( ishh..
Please be good to me..next week do more better than this week..!!
Posting a letter..written by my form 5 tuition teacher.. I think so..
So..here is it..

Dear father and mother,
I hope this letter finds the both of you in the best of health. I am sorry for not writing sooner but I have been really busy trying to settle in and adjust to my new lifestyle.

I know that you were really worried when you had to leave me soon after I had registered for the orientation session .Mother , I recognised that worried look on your face that said if only you could just settle me into my room before you leave! Well, I must admit that I was a little lost after you lefty. Everything and every one was so new and it was the first time in my life that I have to fend for myself.

After I registered at the front desk, I was sent into the main hall where all the freshies had gathered . One of the seniors approached me and showed me to a seat . Everyone looked as nervous as I did. Fortunately, I befriended a few people and after a while , thing were starting to look up.

Then we started the week long orientation programmer. This was the part I dreaded most as I had heard many horror stories about ragging . To my surprise , the seniors were really helpful and the orientation week turned out to be most useful . I was allocated to a hostel room which I am sharing with a lively Chinese girl , Sally , fom Ipoh . The hostel is about fifteen minutes walk to my faculty.

We were also taken in a tour of the campus , which , I must say, is very impressive. We were also given faculty briefing where we were advised on subjects to take . We were also required to sign up for tutorials . It was quite tricky trying to juggle with the tutorial sessions to come up with a convenient schedule but it was all part of the fun.

Classes only started a week ago. It was a whole new experience for me as I had never been in a class of 200 students before ! The lectures were very impressive and I admit that I was a little intimidated to be in presence of so many academics. The tutorial, however, we're conducted in groups of twenty ....( I think I missed it).... There was plenty of room for interaction.

I am excited about being here and I am looking forward making the most of all this university has offer. I miss the two of you and look forward to coming home during the mid-term break. Meanwhile , rest assured that I have settled well and I am enjoying myself here , so don't worry. I forward to your reply soon.

Your lovely daughter,


I'm posting this letter is because part of my new lifestyle is almost the same..although dont have a very big and perfect school..don't have a big room.. But still in comfort..anyways, study life is coming back..I'll put more effort on my studies.so..good luck to me:D

New year new life

Happy new year..
19 years old soon..
Can't believe time flies
Went for Taiwan with whole family;)
Sister went for New Zealand for working holiday , it take almost one year..(02/01/13)
Wish her good luck;)
Another sister go to Australia in 14/02/13. To exchange study.
Finish her uni life;))
I'm going to start my studies soon..
I'm so afraid of it..
Afraid of meeting new friend..
I think I can't handle..
Please give me some brave..
I'm too afraid ;((((
Happy study life😔😔📚📚📖📖📖


*** argue with him 31/12/12,05/01/13 ***
Is it my problem??